Peaceful contemplation.

I sit here, in someone else's home, contemplating if my own actually feels as though it is mine yet.
It has been mine for I suppose three weeks now and it has yet to have that feeling of comfort.
This home, however, has a more comfortable feel because it is the location I have had the most human interaction and conversation since arriving in my new home, Florida.

With a French singer of English and French songs ringing in the air, I can do nothing but dream of sitting in a corner table of a Manhattan cafe doing exactly as I am now. The only difference being I am about to head out amongst the crazy spirits and streets of Manhattan to meet what I imagine would be my soul mate group of friends. We laugh, enjoy a cocktail, and all with a jazz soundtrack.

I dream of this for a very simple reason. I have never felt as I do within the city limits of New York, New York. Some love, some hate, I adore. If I could drop out of school and somehow survive off of some meaningless job there I would. Only if more of my long nineteen years could have been spent breathing the polluted air that is the love of my life.

If that had been the case, it might not mean as much it does. To be able to strive to have something that has so much meaning is beautiful. As well as if I had not grown up in Nashville with the people who have impacted my life so much, I would not be who I am and New York would not be such a compelling and crucial component to who I am.

I have never actually thought about this before, as the always "future entertainment lawyer", I could be so happy living life rallying for what I believe in. I would adore being able to do that never leaving Gotham City, but at the same time traveling the world rallying my passions would mean just as much. Am I saying I do not want to be a lawyer anymore? No, I do think I will enjoy and thrive in the career, but I do believe I will find a way to incorporate that with my love for people, equality, peace, Manhattan, and cultures worldwide. Plus, it might help finance these passions. School it is.

No matter my views on sprituality, I pray that be my future.
Thank you Nashville, handful of people there I hold so dearly, and Manhattan for always being a reminder of what is to come. I love you all.