"Where everybody knows your name..."

"Friendships come and go..."
A classic phrase expressed throughout a person's life.
Not exactly the best concept to be taught if you think about it.
From a young child to adulthood it gives a cop-out
for every time you let a friendship fall by the wayside.

After cycling through the past few years of friendships,
I have definitely made my cop-outs.
Then my brain churns over being the person who fell to the wayside.
As I really think about it,
it's like divorce without all the paperwork.

Friendships, for some people, are the closest relationships they have ever had.
Allowing yourself to let someone into your soul and know you through and through
is no small feat.
Especially when those friends are what become family,
making the 'divorce' every ounce as more painful.

I am not one to allow people fully into my world with ease.
I love meeting people and making new friends,
but to truly let someone into my life is and always will be difficult for me.
Until recently I never fully mulled over the pains and losses from friendships past.
It brings to light, in my mind, those who truly know virtually every page in the story of my life to date.
The concept is trivial, but time really does mean something.

There are not many,
very, very few actually,
friends from prior to college I still stay in contact with.
Mulling over that has its pains,
but true joys when realizing those who have affected me in such a way that I still miss them,
on a regular basis.

The list is minimal,
but very close to my heart.
I pray every day a divorce is not to come in any fashion.
Missing and loving,
Brittany